...Copy Cat...

I have always loved looking at wedding stuff (I'm a girl, I know), but today when I was snoopin around on one of my favorite wedding blogs that my friend/photographer KimBE was featured on I found MY wedding... I don't want a traditional reception at all (which is going to drive my mom and grandmother NUTS) and I want more of a romantic/earthy/whimsically/vintage reception... I always thought it would be cool to have it in my grandma's back yard with a tent and have candles and lights hanging everywhere with tons of leaves and branches accenting everything (wow did I just drone on or what?!)... well I found a wedding that I am going to copy... here are some pictures!

I especially love the movie picnic at the end... It would be the coolest thing ever to have... so basically if you are one of my close friends and you see this, THIS IS MY WEDDING! no mooching or you'll be embarrassed when my grandma does my version of it better!

PS... I just realized that I'm no where near needing to plan a wedding (that guy has to find me first!) so sorry if I spooked anyone...

...Main Goal...

My Aunt called today and we had a "put your big girl panties on Kaylee!" talk... She asked me my main goal and told me that that's what I need to think about when planning things out right now...

Basically, my main goal is to be a mom and someone's awesome wife... now that doesn't mean that I'm rushing into anything or that it means I want that immediately, but it does mean that I need to remember that when I'm sitting around making plans for my life... Basically right now that means I have to decide between two things:

1) Going to Paul Mitchell the Hair School... I would LOVE to go there, but there is the problem of having to come up with $800 which also means that I have to wait around until I get a job and save up for $800 and then start school... this could mean that I have to wait for a few months!

or!

2) Look into going to a tech. school to get my cosmetology license and then have my pell grants cover it and not go into debt for school, but also at the same time, limit my networking that I could have gotten at Paul Mitchell...

so yeah... if I want to be an awesome wife and mom I should probably pick option number two.... but there is still a nagging part of me that won't let me pick it... Why can't someone make my decisions for me?!

...DTR...

The most three dreaded letters I think anyone can imagine... Define The Relationship... Whats most painful about it is that it is necessary, but awkward because someone is about to lay it all out on the line in hopes that the other reciprocates... Most often times its what both people are thinking anyway, but both are too scared to say... I hate being that person who doesn't know exactly what she's involved in so it would make sense that I am pro these kind of talks... but.....

I think I'm even more confused now that I just had one... I really like this guy, I just hope he likes me as much too (pretty sure he does since he was cool with the talk) and I wish maybe I hadn't had the talk so quickly... I felt like it needed to happen and I've learned a long time ago to go with my gut feelings... Hopefully there isn't already a screw up...

Conclusion... We're not going to see anyone else.... but there is no label... not too sure what that means, but I'll let you know later :)

...Forgiveness...

When I lived in Tallahassee I got set up on a blind date that was surprising... The guy belonged to a frat and I was a bit worried, but I knew he was taking me out to a nice place so I thought, what the heck, at least I'll get a nice dinner out of it! Well as it turns out the conversation was surprisingly nice and the guy didn't think I was a complete freak because of my pretty firm beliefs... I really enjoyed the date and we made plans for a couple of others... one of those dates happened to be me making him dinner... I overly prepared for it, and he blew me off... Needless to say I was pissed and trust me he heard it and tried justifying with BS excuses... I wiped my hands of it and was done... Months later I got a message from the guy on facebook... He said that he was sorry he never apologized for standing me up and explained how he did like me and that he has a drug addiction which limited him to doing the things he really wants to do... He also told me that I was beautiful and that if it weren't for his addiction he'd want to be with me... I was very surprised with his open honesty, especially since I hadn't seen or heard from him in a while! Needless to say, it made my day... I realized that I had forgiven him for that a while ago, but that he needed to still ask for forgiveness for it to be okay with him and I can really appreciate that.. I know how hard it is to correct mistakes you made, even if they are already forgiven... It make me think of the things that I might not have asked for forgiveness for because I was embarrassed or too prideful at the time... I hope I can have the courage to make restitution like this guy did... I appreciate his example, however late it was...

...Moab...

She's gone! my quickest best friend just got on a plane and left! Who stole her back? Moab! Moab did... She is a river guide there and she's left to go live her life of adventure! I already miss Jess... its kind of weird... I hope she has an amazing summer getting tan (but not as tan as I will) and hopefully I will be able to make it out there in August so I can go down her rapids with her! Jess I will now live my river adventures vicariously through you....

...MBP...

Its no secret if you are one of my friends that I read this blog religiously... I think its hilarious and have even gotten a few friends on the MBP train... Recently I've wondered if I should blog about them or not because its one of my obsessions that I can't decided if its good or bad, so I've just shied away.... well lucky for me, I checked their blog and they posted about how if I blog about them I can win a giveaway for this HOT but modest dress..... SOOOOOO everyone, go to this link and leave a comment about how I totally deserve to win this dress! I would appreciate it so much, plus you'll get the sheer satisfaction of how hilarious these guys are... read it! it will become one you your guilty pleasures!

http://mormonbachelorpad.blogspot.com/2010/04/first-giveaway.html

...Aunt Jamie...

A while ago I did a post on my Aunt Jodi, and now its time for Aunt Jamie... I remember way back in the day where Aunt Jamie would pick me up from elementary school when she got out of high school because it was right across the street... I specifically can remember this one time where she toted around this HUGE box full of fundraiser items all around Leesburg High school once when she picked me up... We would rock out in her car on the way home and she was always around when I was little... As I have grown up she is someone that I have truly grown to love and look up to... I try to model who I want to be after most of her qualities... here are some:

She is incredibly giving...

She is an amazing mother...

She is a best friend to many...

She always is smiling...

She is very patient...

She finds the upside to everything...

She loves to have fun...

She is understanding...

She is beautiful...

She is Christ-like...

I look at how she is with her family and that is exactly what I want... I want to love my husband like she loves hers and I want to enjoy every moment I have with my kids--to just love being their mom... My Aunt always gives the best spiritual advice and does it in a way that isn't a turn off... This easter she even gave up the money she won from finding her golden egg... I love her and she is becoming one of my greatest friends and role models...

... Egg-cellent...

This Easter was pretty weird because it was also General Conference so we went over to Grandma and Grandpa's house to watch it... it also meant that we didn't wear Easter dresses! WEIRD! It was fun getting to watch Conference with my family all together and in between sessions we had our annual Easter egg hunt and had a fabulous Easter dinner... This year Aunt Jamie did this cool thing with easter eggs that taught the true meaning of Easter and reminded us of the Sacrifice Christ made for us... I really need to get that from her so I can do it later... Despite the fact that Aunt Jodi and her girls, Kaitlyn and Taylor, and Uncle Chad's family weren't there, we still got the annual Grandkid Easter picture!

Here are the pictures from the last 7 YEARS!

I got a picture with my daddy again this year... just a little bit different from last year!

And I think Hayden and I have an Easter tradition here...

after thousands of pictures, here are the family pictures of the Hornsby family...

and here are some of all of the kids during the Easter festivities...

General Conference was amazing! I'm so glad I am at the point in my life where I actually get stoked for Conference and then get sad once its over... I feel so blessed that my Heavenly Father has given us Apostles and Prophets to counsel us and tell us the things that Heavenly Father needs and expects! I really enjoyed this last conference... I got a lot out of it, but mostly I got that I need to start doing my family history... I'm probably going to have to get my grandmother's help with that one and maybe my good friend Jay (his new calling in Tally is to teach the Genealogy class! haha) I also got a lot of stuff about teaching children and youth... who knows, maybe I'll use all of my notes that I took later on when I'm in charge of teaching either the youth through a calling or just my future family... I LOVE Conference though and I am super excited for October to get here just so I can hear it again! I love my family and I'm so glad that we all got to share Easter and Conference together!